Holes

I think it's what I needed 
I feel so good inside 
The moment is so comforting 
The moment leaves I await its return 
The feeling disintegrates 
The negative flows in 
Never good enough 
Only can give it to myself 
But how? 
Desire for acceptance and love 
Reality seeps through the holes 
It's all up to me to let it in 
The holes can be mended 
Time, pain and patience 
Love flows in and stays